"That Is What I Am Here For"
January 26, 2011
Sometimes you ponder the why’s of what I do
Or ask “What exactly are you about?”
Well my hubby and sons I will tell you
What I am here for
I am here to comfort your wandering mind
To wipe away tears, kissed scrapped knees, and boo boos
To sit watch over you in your feverish sleep
To hold you when your dreams are bad
To encourage you when you want to try something new
Soften the blows from life when you fail
To hold your hand on your first or millionth step
To push you when you want to hide
I am here to make you smile because I am a tad loony
To be your memory in case you need to learn from history
I am here to make sure your home is clean and pantry full
Dishes are washed with dinner on the table
Yes, I had a life before I was blessed chosen to be a wife
But that was then, I've lived many lifetimes;
I achieved my wildest dreams, fulfilled my destiny as soon as
As soon as I held you (my boys) in my arms;
To be here for you; that is what I am here for.
This poem is dedicated to Saenz and a conversation we had three nights ago. He wanted to know if I was bored being a wife and mother; that perhaps I had not gotten the chance to live a fulfilled life. It is funny how folks will think, women who choose to have children or be a wife; have no prior life or are unhappy. I guess my place now doesn't seem as exciting to him as when I wore the Air Force uniform. It is hard to explain to a mind that is slowly opening up to grasp the meaning of life; how small things are important.
Yet, I am happier now than I have ever been in my life. I am so truly blessed to have the responsibility and joy of being their mother and wife to their father. To me being 'Mom' is just as scarey (exciting) as holding an M16 and standing guard at a entry control point. I never know what is going to happen nor the outcome from our shared experiences. It is definitely much more thrilling to be on the roller coaster ride of the day to day with my menfolk.